I don't know how often you read this blog or "stalk" my twitter but this is for you. We've had terrible fights over things that are just considered unnecessary. And it is probably a surprise to me and to those around me to realize that I'm still hopelessly in love with you. You always mention that I've changed and all sorts of nonsense but I never changed. I still love you as much as I used to but I just don't know how to express it anymore. We always end up fighting and most of the times, I know it's because of me but why? Do you ever ask yourself why? Just like how I've changed according to you, according to me you have changed also. I don't feel like a priority in your life anymore and idk la. I just don't want to lose you. You always tell me that I should find another guy who is better than you and all that nonsense but to me, you're the best. You are the only one who can make me feel the way I feel right now. You are the only one who can make me happy and sad at the same time. I never want you to think that I never cared about you because I'm the one who worries when you don't have any sleep and drive all the way to wherever you are going. I'm the one who gets worried about you when you tell me you're dying even if you meant it as a joke. I'm the one who gets worried about you leaving me for good. I never wanna leave you. I get jealous a lot and you know that very well. I wish I could just marry you and runaway somewhere. I don't know when will you read this but just know that I will always love you.