So, today might be my last day blogging.Starting work tmr @Oosh.From 6pm to 12am.I wonder how is it gonna be like working but imma do my best, i wouldn't give up halfway.Gotta get up early in the morning to head to the bank to open a new account.I think my parents're afraid of me spending all the money in my old account thus they want me to open another account.Wouldn't be able to blog much since i'll be working for the next 5 days.I'm working on New year eve from 6pm to 12am and New year itself from 12pm to 7pm.Good uh? Cas i'm not in the mood to celebrate New year so i might as well work.
Say that i'm running away or what, i don't care.I don't think this is ever gonna work out.Call me stupid or silly but i still love you after all that you've put me thru.So what if i was the one who wanted to break-up.Never make a decision when your mind is in a mess.I fucking miss you.Each time i receive a message or call, i do pray that it's from you but .. i just have to accept reality eh? You're bent on doing this, right? Then why fucking confess to me in the first place? A says i should just message you but i don't know what to message you.I feel like just running away.You know .. i can't forget you.At times i just wanna call you up and tell you everything that's on my mind but something somehow stops me.Pride? Fear? I don't know.Just get out of my life for good.Why come back now and then? I had enough.I really had enough.
Not being emo but i just feel fed-up.I just feel like running away.I really do love you but when the fuck're you gonna understand that?! Don't freakin' say i'm the one who initiated the break-up.Yes, i'm the one but i've realised my mistake.You never know what you had till it's gone for good.I miss you.Last year, this time, we were really happy you know.Now? Sigh.
I think imma schedule a post or something for New year cas i'll be working.Planning to drink after that though but i'll be working on Saturday in the afternoon so imma not get myself drunk.Sigh bye.