I wanted to stay away from you.I wanted to avoid you.I didn't want to message you or see your message.I wanted to just get somewhere far, far away from you.But today morning when i saw your message and a missed call from you, i couldn't help but smile to myself.You're the only guy i keep in contact with now.Don't ask me why i am trying to avoid you.I'm afraid that i might fall for you.I'm worried.I don't wish to hurt anyone this year.I don't know .. i feel so confused.
Work in another 2 hours' time! Still feeling sick though my fever is down.Feeling so cold as though the temperature is -15 degrees.No, i really feel that cold.My body system is screwed up! Sigh i feel so weak.Like i'm gonna die soon.How am i gonna be on my feet for the next 8 hours then? Or should i punch out early if i don't feel that good? But i've to work max 8 hours leh.Sigh .. i'll try to hang in there till 9:30PM.
No appetite since yesterday.Hopefully i don't faint today.Tmr is Monday.Somehow i feel that my results are gonna be screwed and i'm gonna end up crying.Haha, @Vimalan was saying tears of joy but i don't think so uh.Tears of regrets? No such thing ah but ya i don't feel too good about tmr, bad feeling, how? Sigh if i am gonna choose ITE, i want AMK lor but it only opens in what, 2013? SIGH SAD.Excess caffeine doesn't have any effect on me. Why am i still feeling sleepy! Gotta get ready soon and i'm still here because i'm feeling so tired, so sick and so weak that i can hardly get up and walk around.Working life is tough.Tmr is like sort of my off day since i needa go take results.Sigh i feel excited but at the same time scared.Guess i shall end here, blog after i get my results, xoxo.
[Edited @8:42PM/ Punched out early cas i was feeling terribly sick.Got thru the first 5 hours though i was feeling all giddy like as though i was gonna faint soon.Went down for break at around 5pm and that's when i started shivering like mad! I wanted to nearly cry ok.But i regret lor, like 3 more hours to closing then i punch out cas couldn't take it.Thank god, i've got an awesome supervisor and awesome colleagues.But i promise everything else that happened after that made me feel way more terrible.Getting a cab around Town is like finding for a goldmine thus as usual, i called for one and just my luck, i couldn't get thru so i decided to take the effing bus to Chinatown and from there i took 851 which was hell crowded.I was fucking disappointed cas the bus was fucking packed and the driver still wanted more passengers to get in and this fucker infront of me keep stepping on my shoe and tryna push me aside.I was like can you fucking say excuse me?! And the other guy kept saying 'siam' to the passengers and i'm like HELLO, WHERE YOUR FUCKING RESPECT?! But c'mon, when the bus is fucking packed, you shouldn't be taking in anymore passengers, right? You know i seriously wanted to fucking scream at that bus driver.I WAS PRACTICALLY CURSING THE FUCKER INFRONT OF ME.Cb, fucker you know.Keep trying to push here push there, fucked up.And you know, it's SMRT.Wanted to lodge a complaint but i forgot to take down the number and all.Why i took this bus was cause the next 124 would only come after 48 minutes.Yes, 48 minutes.I WONDER WHY SO LONG.Coming from what, Msia, is it?! Telling you, this made me so angry that i wanted to shout fuck off.So, the moral of the story is, never use public transport! Thank you so much uh! I was already feeling fucking sick and you made me feel even more worst.Fml.End here, xo.]