Stuck.
On the other hand, IF i decide to re-take just Math alone, it'll be a tad too tough the second time around cause it's all about self-studying.I don't know whether i'll be up to it.I don't know whether i'll have that discipline.What if i give up half-way? That'll be a year wasted.I don't wish to waste time.But my courses in ITE are very limited too since i'm only interested in that Business side and only CCK offers the course i really want, Hospitality operations.After graduation, i'll be able to enter either SP's or NP's Tourism and Resort Management with a minimum GPA of 3.0.But i think as long as it's above 2.0, it's alright. That's what i've been seeing in the ITE website.But the main point is, i've TO get into this course in ITE if not i can forget about Tourism.
On a closer look at MDIS' website, i'll be able to take Tourism in their school as long as i've 5 GCE 'O' Level credits which i do have.But the worry is that i'm hearing a lot of bad news about MDIS and i know about the reputation they have.So, despite knowing all these, how do i apply for MDIS? Why do all private schools have some kind of bad reputation? Sigh.Unless i decide to go overseas which i'm not planning to do anytime soon.
So, balancing all the pros and cons, Higher Nitec seems a better choice.My only worry is that i'll become too slack and then i'll forget everything about going Poly.Nothing should be too much as long as i get thru the 2 years, right? But i'll be wasting 5 years thru this longer route.By that time, i'll be what, close to 22? But on the other hand, IF i re-take Math and qualify for Poly, i'll be 18.Then 3 years in Poly would make me 21 though.So, not much difference uh.I might as well take the ITE route then.Becaus re-taking Math again doesn't guarantee a pass.But i don't know.I might try appealing though.But very slim chances of that being a successful appeal.
I wished i had put in a bit more effort for Math when i was in lower sec.Instead of concentrating much on my strongest subjects, i should have put in that effort for Math.Sigh but it's too late to go back in time and put everything back in place.Now, all i gotta do is, pull myself together and prepare myself for the next big step i'm about to take.I need to get myself back on track.Sigh, i feel so down.Like i've no motivation to actually get back on track and study again.People around me are helping but eventually, it lies within me whether i want to do this or not."When the going gets tough, the tough get going."
[Edited @8:14PM/ Hi, it sucks to be me.Supportive parents and friends but yet it doesn't feel good to be me at the end of the day.I feel so demoralized.I feel like i don't have it in me to re-take Math and make it the second time around yet i want to give myself that second chance.I feel so discouraged.I don't feel like doing anything.DON'T FREAKIN' CALL ME OR MSG ME, I WOULDN'T REPLY.Or i'll pick up and scream at you, that's what i did yesterday cause i was in such bad mood :( I feel like running away from all this, i don't wanna face anyone.I don't wanna make any decision.Though i've somehow made up my mind, i don't know.Enter ITE and at the same time re-take Math.Would i be able to balance my time? I seriously don't know.I want to cry so badly.I need to pick myself up and get everything back on track.Till then, i wouldn't be updating this space.For the sake of my future, for you, i'm not gonna give up.I'll be back, xoxo.]