I've always had this voice within me screaming that "keep your cool, keep that mask on!" But it's really tough pretending that every thing's alright.I tried to be happy and i tried to put everything behind me and move on.I tried but i'm really tired of always trying.It's a struggle everyday.But whatever, i can no longer be bothered.I should just start shutting myself up in my room to avoid any questions related to this.You're always there, you're everywhere. But right now I wish you were here.
I hate the fact that i'm only left with 13 days before everything ends for good.It's gonna be the same cycle once school starts.You know, the usual, school > home > out > home > sleep.I'm making empty promises about studying real hard and such because i no longer have the motivation in me to push myself to strive for the best.I'm losing hope in myself, in everything.If i could turn back time, i'd love to go back to this time last year then at least i'd make good use of the time revising for my Emath.I'm drained both physically and mentally.But, still, in order not to let down the people around me or just myself, i'll try to at least do well for my ITE course.In the worst scenario, i'll just quit and enrol myself into a private school.
How would this year's O'LevelEmath paper be like? I'm afraid.This fear inside me, grr.To side-track, my body clock has been rather screwed.I feel as though i'm living in a different time-zone.God knows how imma adapt when school starts.But seriously .. whatever.Shall continue on the 100 facts about me post, hah! End here, xoxo.