It's 10 minutes past 2am.While the whole neighbourhood is fast asleep, i'm up here think about certain issues.Less than a week left before school starts for good, exactly 5 days left! I really am having mixed feelings.On one hand, i'm all excited for school to begin and on the other hand, i'm feeling rather demotivated to even study.I really don't know how am i gonna score for my Emath and Econs with my confidence level at its lowest.I hate this, i hate this.I'd love to purchase pills that'd boost my confidence level but sigh, there's no such thing, yet.
I was thinking about everything that once made me happy, made me the happiest girl on Earth.I miss having you by my side, i miss the way you used to scold me like a little kid, i miss you.I'd love to go on pretending that i love you no more but i'm really tired of pretending as though every thing's alright, it's quite a struggle inside.Nvm, someday i'll be alright, i guess.
Leaving that aside, i really don't know when am i gonna head out to get my school related materials.Sucks, i'm rather lazy to head down anywhere these days.Yet to get the perfect pair of shoes for school.Everything at Aldo is just way too nice, i wish i could purchase everything, lol.Ah, yet to get my contact lens.I'm all prepared for last minute shopping.
Feeling the urge to start up a new blog, a new space.But on the other hand, i don't wish to delete off this space either.I feel like starting everything all over again.I feel like starting my life all over again.I just need to put 2010 behind and move on with life.What's done is already done, i can never turn back time again but why do i insist on living in the past? But, what IF i give you the chance and then i hurt you also? I wouldn't be able to take another blow.How did i change this much? I hate my past, i hate my past! "Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future." I shall end here, xoxo.