She ain't me.
What i thought was never gonna work out is working out now.I know it's not gonna be easy trusting another guy all over again.Especially after what i've been thru, it's not gonna be easy but i know with you beside me, being my pillar of support, i'm gonna get through any challenge that life is gonna pose.I wanna start all over again with you right beside me.I want you to be the one who is gonna walk with me through out this journey called life.This time around i'm dead bent on changing.It's high time i did anyway.I'm sick and tired of leading such a life.I can't change my past but i can decide my future :) I know this is it but i don't know what fate has in for us but i'll wait because you're worth dying for.
Side-tracking, another weekend has come to an end and i very much hate it.Another 2 more weeks before the 3 weeks of June break.It's just 3 weeks and i'll have to be doing my second ETP project which is solely based on Marketing.I'm really scared that i'd end up having another breakdown.I'm afraid.I can no longer take this stress from school.I know i'm gonna get thru this, i know i will.I know how much i wanna give up.I feel mentally drained.I don't know.I feel like dropping out of ITE.But where will i go if i drop out? Work? Re-take O's? Private school? I know with him right beside me i'll get through these 2 years but how long more can i fight on? I really don't wish to think about anything.
The clock shows 6.47 PM.I'm suppose to study for my BEV CA which is on Tuesday.I'm confident i can do it but i'm afraid.This is nothing new to me but why do i always feel this way? Why is my confidence level always at its lowest? I really don't wish to remain this way.It very much affects the way i think.I just want to get through this 2 years and my O'Level which is at the end of this year.I really want to get through this.I want my old self back.This is not suppose to be an emotional post at all but i don't know, i just felt like saying what's in my mind.After all this is my space.I miss me, xoxo.