Reprobate romance.
Changed my blog skin but still not satisfied. I want something simple but my HTML skills are rather rusty and i messed up a whole lot of codes thus i'm sticking to this for now. I know i'm such a disappointment. Despite having my break, i refuse to blog on a daily basis. I'm just sick and tired of .. writing out my thoughts but this is the only thing that probably keeps me going. I might consider closing down this blog and just keeping my private blog. As days past, i'm just becoming more lazy to update or do anything. My daily routine seems to be always getting up and going out for the past 2 weeks or so. Call it running away from reality but that seems like the only solution. Don't ask me what's wrong because i've no answer to that. I wish i had though. I wish i had some crystal like ball that could help me foresee the future. I don't know. All i hope for is a future with him. I don't know whether this would come true but i'll leave it all up to Jesus. He knows better.
Leaving aside all my personal issues, the past 2 weeks have been really awesome. Lazy to upload any photos. Neverland last night was alright though i should have been at Zirca with 'em. Argh. Had the best conversation with Dzaf last night cause she was hella wasted and she didn't know what she was doing. Damn, i laughed till i cried. Trust me, without this girl, my ITE life would be hella boring. Thanking god for this amazing friend i've gotten :) Thank god, hangover wasn't that bad. I need a job so badly but i'm lazy to do up a resume. Like seriously, l-a-z-y. Ever since he left, my motivation to do anything has been at its lowest. I know i need to pull myself together because nothing has happened between us. No break-up, no shit. We're just not on talking terms but you know .. i've this bad feeling. I know he wouldn't go missing without a reason but why suddenly...? I don't quite get it. I miss him a lot more than anyone could ever do. Come back, would you? It's been so long, love. Shall end here i guess, xx.