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Saturday, October 22, 2011
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I'm extremely proud of myself. The satisfaction derived from last minute revision. Satisfaction in a negative way that is. My papers are next week and i don't know how to put my current feelings into words. I'm not scared, just somehow nervous. It's my second time at it and the thought of sitting in a new environment with unfamiliar faces somehow scares me. I quite dread next Thursday though that's the day i've been looking forward to for the past 8 months or so. I've no fear. Even if i don't make it this time around *touch wood*, i've my course in ITE to continue on with but i'll end up being a disappointment to many and definitely, to myself. I've worked hard and definitely i know the amount of effort i've put in this year is more than what i put in last year. But still it's this struggle within me. I want my efforts to pay off but .. I know i should have the confidence in myself but somehow, this is just me. Ah, fuck. I'll be fine. I'll do fine even in ITE.

On another note, i've been doing Econs the whole day and so far, i''m doing good with not much distractions. Emath tonight. Hoping to finish up Econs by Monday. God, bless me. No matter how much of a headache Econs is, i still love that damn subject! Just to side-track, tmr is my 3rd month with baby. I'm so glad we've come this far. Nothing much compared to those who have got through 4 or 5 years of r/s but for me, that 3 months mean more than anything else. I'm glad i've someone who always stands by me no matter what. We both might not seem like a couple from the way we scold and insult each other but that's what make us special. And it's so cute as to how you kept emphasizing on Sunday during our conv last night.


The clock shows 10:06 pm. I deserve a good break for doing Econs for two hours straight, heh! Freaking bored. Stayed home the whole day because i've yet to recover and plus, i really need to start studying. My modules this sem are not as easy as they seem. I wish AS didn't carry 6 credits. Sigh. WRB is very much based on English. Letters, notices, messages and etc. So easy to score but with that extra effort, duh! Ah fuck, i'll get through all this. I will! A long post today after so long. Guess i shall end here, xx.


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