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Sunday, October 30, 2011
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My long weekend has ended. Back to school tmr. Back to the same old routine of traveling for 1.5 hours. Back to boarding the fucking packed LRT at 8 am in the morning. Back to long school hours. Back to modules which i probably up till now don't even understand fully. It's been 4 weeks or so since sem 2 started and i am ashamed to declare that i don't understand much about my modules. AS, PMS, SVE and WRB. I don't get a shit these days, i'm losing all my concentration. I don't even know what i'm doing in ITE anymore. My GPA for this sem is gonna be like shit considering the amount of effort i'm putting in now. I'm gonna end up as a disappointment again, sigh. Life is like shit.

I probably would be off to my private blog after this. Today is probably what i call my worst Sunday. Stayed home the whole day because i'm so sick that i can't even drag myself out of the bed. I've lost my voice. I can't do any shit right now. All i probably wanna do is sleep. Getting all cranky these days because of baby. I get all cranky when i miss him and i very much hate it. I wanna just talk to him so badly now and meet him and spend the whole night with him, just him and me. I just miss him so badly. I really admire all those couples who are in a long-distance relationship. So much goes into maintaining a long-distance relationship. Trust, loyalty and everything else. I wish we could meet often just like what any other couples do. I wanna be an unreasonable girlfriend and throw tantrums when we don't get to meet each other but in a relationship, understanding is very important and i understand that the end of the year is approaching and you're tied down by a lot of work now. But sometimes i wish we could be like any other couple, meeting often and such. Sigh. Baby, i miss you a lot.

I've not said anything the whole day. Good thing i'm down with a bad sore throat if not my mum would have assumed something is wrong with me. Sigh. I wanna just meet him now, like now! I wish i could. Might have to wait till December before i can meet him again and it's killing me. It sucks. Can i just sleep till then? Sigh, i just miss you a lot. A lot. Off to my private blog, xx.


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