1:19 am: The world neighbourhood is so quiet. I'm suppose to be working on my SVE script that is due tmr but here i am, unable to get my creative juices flowing. When i did CMB last sem i didn't find script writing this tough but this time around i'm really struggling. Despite being given a wide range of scenarios to choose from, my mind is still empty. If i fail SVE i'd be very disappointed in myself because this is one module which is very easy to score, be it in theory or role-play. But i really am losing interest in school. In sem 1 - despite the project stress and everything else i still could drag myelf to sch every other day without fail but in sem 2, i'm simply losing motivation in going to school. Not because i'm facing any problems or such. Maybe it's due to the exam stress and heavy weightage of my modules. I don't know.
All i know is i don't wanna end up giving up half-way in this course. I really, really love the Hospitality industry and i want to graduate from ITE. I don't wanna end up being a drop-out. As much as i'd love to pursue a private diploma next year, i really can't bear to do so when i realise that i've passed 7 months of my course in ITE. Sigh, i guess the stress is setting in. I just need to find a person to talk to - someone who'll pull me back in before i start straying. Sigh, to approach CA or not? That's the question. He'll kill me if he finds out i'm having such thoughts again. My parents leave the whole decision up to me. Sigh, i'm stuck. Jesus, guide me, would you? Gimme the strength to hang in there and fight till the end. Amen.