Got so much to update but i don't know where to start. Backspaced everything that i actually typed out because it's all getting a tad too personal. Let's leave aside the whole relationship issue. All i can say is i fucked up every shit. Treating someone whom i once used to love as a friend is HELL. Trust me, it kills. But i'm done with you and our relationship. I'm quite tired of playing around. I finally feel this need to last in a relationship. To settle down with someone i love. I want a long lasting relationship but idk whether that is possible now, at this moment. I'm still trying to get up and move on ... i know i got to. After all i fucked things up. Ah, leave this.
My life in ITE is almost gonna be over. Finally made the choice to pursue private dip @ SDH. Part time job, private dip and awesome friends. What else more do i need? I swear i don't wanna fall in love, at least for now. 2012 is just another 2010. I'm gonna spend the next few months mending a broken heart. Idk where am i gonna start. Idk where is my life heading towards. Suddenly i feel so lost but i know i can do this. Ah, fuck my life.
Idk whether i'm fine. Idk how long more am i to continue pretending that i'm fine with us being friends ... it just hurts. Off to private blog, xoxo.