"I have never been strong enough to stay. People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn’t. Staying, even when you know it will break your heart, is the hardest thing. Staying right where you are, waiting for your entire world to be ripped into pieces is much harder than walking away and starting a new one." - Tumblr.

I don't know what's going on in my life anymore. I'm just not strong enough to take this shit anymore. This heartache is killing me. Losing you for the third time is just ... idk. There're no more words to describe this pain and emptiness that i'm feeling inside. Everything has fallen apart and it's so difficult to continue on w/ life. I feel so lousy. I feel like giving it all up and just running away to some place where i can have some peace. Don't keep telling me that i should give up or move on. I know very well that i should but i don't know where to start or how to start. Even if i forget him, what about those memories..? I can't just erase them off, right?

You know what? I hate 2012. And then there's my 18th birthday which is coming up in about 4 months' time. That shit is gonna remind me about you again. Remember the plans we made? You know, we shouldn't have gotten to know each other. We shouldn't have gotten so attached to each other. We shouldn't even have met. I wanna start life all over again. I hate the person that i've turned into now. Remember how you always used to countdown to 11pm or 12am just so that we can hang on the phone for the night? Remember the night before we met each other for the first time? Remember how you were so excited and then got so nervous towards the night? Le sigh, can you just come back..? It's been long, it's been very long.

Xoxo.