Movie date w/ Suraj yesterday was simply awesome. That boy is simply cute. I love how it's so easy to have any types of conv w/ guys. Caught Avengers w/ him. Oh man, that was like after SO long of contemplation on whether to catch that movie or not. Sigh, once again i am confused. I don't know where this is taking me to but like what Terence always says, Jesus has a plan in for all of us :) I believe he knows best and that he always wants the best for me. It's not easy letting go of a relationship just like that especially when you had so many dreams about the future. At the end of the day, words mean nothing. They simply carry no weight. No more. It sucks to know that all those late night conversations we had back then mean nothing right now. Oh well, everything happens for a reason but i'm still not able to believe this. Why do we have to end off this badly? I didn't even expect this, not even in my dreams. Oh well, shit happens. I guess it's just a lesson learnt. Maybe i've people like Suraj to thank for giving me the strength to let go off the past, x.

Guess it's time i ended here. Feeling so sick w/ all the fever and sore throat. Shit man, sucks to fall sick 2 days before school. I'm having the worst sore throat ever and i wish i could just rip out my throat and ... i don't know, replace it w/ a brand new one? Okay no. Good night, xx.