It's 4:24am and i'm wide awake at this hour. Managed to finish up my revision for tmr's Continual assessment for my Hotel ops module. Did i mention how much i hate Hotel ops? Argh yeah, i hate Hotel ops with a passion. Not that i really hate it but i've to go through the same old shit i went through during my ETP module in ITE days. It's like a combination of what i did for my ETP and AS module, get it? Almost 2 weeks more before i'm done with this sem. Can't wait! I hate this sem. 4 projects and trust me, it sucks because i've been acting like a bitch towards everyone especially towards the boy thanks to the lack of sleep and whatnots, sigh.
Done with Hotel ops practical. Had so much fun at MBS the other day with Kakak and J during Housekeeping practical. Oh man, i hate making the bed. It's like i'm just not cut out for Housekeeping department at all.
Sigh, anyway did i mention how bad my Saturday was? It was really bad. I don't know why we keep fighting. All i ask for is to meet you every weekend. I was so free for the past few weeks but you were busy. And now that i'm busy, you insist that i should meet you. Can you seriously cut me some slack? I've other bloody plans and i'm stuck with so many deadlines to meet. I'm so fucking drained and all i ever ask for now is a good sleep till late noon but because of that, you got all pissed off and got me pissed off too. Seriously i'm tired of trying to pretend that i'm fine. I'm on the verge of losing my sanity.
I hate how every relationship has its "honeymoon" period. After that month or two, it's like heading to a war zone every single day. I don't wish to be fighting or having small little arguments every single day...it's tiring. Hais, i don't know what to do. I wanna cry it all out. I wanna drink and drop dead. I'm sure after this weekend we wouldn't be meeting for a month again. You claim that i'm important to you and shit but i'm sorry, i no longer feel it. I'm sorry that i'm fucking insecure. Aiya, fuck it. I'm heading to sleep or some shit, xoxo.