3:19am now. I thought i was gonna be able to have a good sleep before my practical assessment later on at MBS but i've been proven wrong again. I've serious sleeping issues. I've myself to blame for sleeping almost half the day away. What i feared most has come true. This is when the real nightmare begins. Stuck between two, what's new? There's nothing good about me at all, nothing. Not trying to get any attention but that's the bloody fact. I'm pretty insecure and whichever guy i'm gonna end up with is gonna get insecure as well because of how close i am with my other guy friends. That's not the issue but what do i do now?
I thought it was all over that Friday/Saturday night but looks like you meant it when you said you need a week to straighten out your thoughts. Now it's all up to me and i don't know why am i always the one breaking hearts. I've had a feel of how it's like to have your heart broken by the one you love the most and i don't wish to hurt another one. I wish i could just runaway from this place now! Le sigh, could do with some drinks now.
I wanna get to sleep so badly but there's just so much on my mind right now. Feeling sick, i really am. Jesus, tell me what i'm suppose to do...tell me what's the best for me. Amen. Xoxo.