The previous post was just to let everything out after keeping it all inside me for weeks. I've had enough of everything that i've been put through by this guy whom i loved so much once upon a time. 5 more days to my 18th birthday and i'm quite losing the mood to celebrate it but oh well, i could do with some alcohol anyway. It's all gonna be about alcohol, alcohol and more alcohol. I don't know, i'm just quite fed up with how things have been going on in my life recently. I mean, i'm just 18 yo. I don't need so many problems or well, relationship problems. I needa head to the church. I needa find some inner peace. I needa find myself back. I needa get back on track and start treating people nicely, just like how i used to back then. But seriously after all that has happened over the past few weeks, i don't know whether i can be the same ever again.
12:55am and i'm quite done with over-thinking. I need some sleep. I need a break. I need to slip into some deep sleep and not wake up for the next few days, i wish i could. Sometimes it just gets tiring to face people and reality. It gets tiring trying to fake my emotions. It gets tiring having to wear a mask and pretending to be all fine in front of people. It's been quite some time since i had some peace. I know i'm talking as though i've been through a lot but ya, emotionally speaking, i've just been put through quite a lot. It's like, the person behind the gun, pulling the trigger, is ALWAYS the one whom you love or treasure a lot. I've learnt a lesson though. Never, never get way too attached to someone. I don't know how things are gonna go from here but i'll just hope for the best.
Anyway to side-track, i'm finally done with all my presentations. Oh man, did i just survive 4 presentations in a week? Oh yes, i did. I'm so glad this sem is almost over. Monday marks the last day of the school week before study break, say yay! 2 more modules before i graduate and have a fucking long break to reward myself. Time flies.