I NEED MY FIX OF ALCOHOL BEFORE I LOSE ALL MY SANITY. Been two weeks since i clubbed or had any alcohol and i swear i'm losing it all. Just sent out my last message to him. It's not an official closure yet but soon it might be because i really don't know what else to do. I'm sick and tired of being the one who is always trying to make things work. I guess karma has finally hit me. But before i end it all, i wanna know what went wrong. Isn't it unfair to do this to me? I never thought that i'd have to go through this pain again. I wish i could start all over again. I wish i could rewind back time to make things right. I wanna let go and walk away so badly but where and how do i start? Maybe things would never be the same again, never. I wanna be numb to this pain so badly. I wanna stop feeling whatever i am feeling right now. I'm losing it all because of someone who promised me that he's not gonna be like the rest. I had enough, let's call this the end.