Saturday, November 17, 2012
17th.
A short post before i head to bed! I kind of am excited about my getaway trip to Malaysia next month but i am trying my best not to get my hopes up because i don't wanna end up getting disappointed. The boy's all sure about the trip and he's pretty much more excited than i am but lemme play safe this time around.
And oh, did i mention Suren took me by surprise when he replied back to my message on Deepavali? I faced so many surprises this Deepavali - Waking up to Lenges' message and then the boy's plan to have a getaway trip to Msia and then finally, a call from Suren. Wow, i'm pretty amazed but as usual, things got pretty messed up at the end of the whole day because of Suren's fake promises, AGAIN. What's so difficult about just agreeing to the break up and letting me go? Since you just don't seem to put in effort into saving this relationship anymore then why are you expecting me to care? Like how long more must i give a fuck and pretend that this shit doesn't affect me? You claim that you're having problems, you're busy and you're the one hurt but for the love of god, i'm more hurt than you are. Stop claiming you miss me because you don't put in the effort to even meet up. Just forget this okay... I'll try to forget everything like it was just a bad dream. Let's go back to being strangers. Maybe this is never gonna work out. I'm tired, geddit? I'm tired.
I don't know how long more am i gonna keep talking about you and crying over you. I'm so tired. I don't wanna start 2013 with tears. If you really love/loved me then let me go... It's not easy for me either but i guess it's time. I'm really tired of this. I just spoilt my night again with this shit. Lemme end here, x.
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