Feeling so free ever since i left work. Call it a good, well deserved break. I've not had the time to breathe ever since i graduated from school and took up a job. I didn't even give myself that well deserved break because i wanted to earn money. Oh well, i've had a good 2 weeks break (i think that should be enough for now) Now it's time to face working life again! Starting my new job on Saturday. 9:30am to 9pm. 5 days a week, 11.5 hours shift. WISH ME LUCK, MAY JESUS HAVE MERCY ON MY SOUL. ALL FOR MONEY, THAT 1.2K.
Anyway, like i assumed, i reckon 2013 is gonna be 10x more worser than 2012. So much drama all because of one guy who claims to have fallen for me. But he doesn't seem to understand that love can't be forced. The feeling is simply not mutual so why can't you just forget everything? Trust me, we're better off as friends. There's no chemistry between us. We can't even click. You might be the sweetest or hottest guy in the whole entire world and i'm still not gonna be moved because we can't click. I swear i don't know how to make you understand. You can NEVER replace him. Seriously, what makes you think you can replace him? You think you're better than him? Oh please, talk to my hand. He's my man, he's perfect in all ways, always. David Suren, the only i can and will ever trust.
I'm sorry for being such a loser but David Suren will always be the one. But i swear idk what else to do to win him over. Looking back, it's my fault for why we have ended up this way. 9th July 2012 could have changed my life for the better but i... sigh, can i turn back time and take back whatever i said back then?
Leaving all that aside, I NEED ALCOHOL. JUST ALCOHOL. I can't wait to get my freaking pay and just partyyyy. LIKE FUCKING DRINK MY NIGHT AWAY. NO WORRIES, NOTHING. JUST THE ALCOHOL AND THE MUSIC. Miss drinking every week. I thought i was gonna change for the better this year but le sigh..i'm done trying. FUCK THIS SHIT, I'M DONE.