19 days into the year and i've not received a single message or call from you. Lemme tell you this, i can't do this anymore. I've reached the point in life where i can't continue pretending anymore. I've been bottling up my emotions for way too long and i can't continue pretending anymore. This is not who i am..i know how much i have changed over the past 1 year. I'm putting aside all my ego/pride and every single shit to tell you how much i need you but why is it that each time i take a step forward, i find you taking two steps back? Why? If you really wanna end this all then fucking come tell me instead of leading me on further and hurting me. This pain is worser than death.
I've to look back on all those days we were happy and cry..do i really deserve all this? Tell me what do you want from me. Everyone else around me sees and realizez how much i miss and need you back in my life but why don't you? Remember i ever told you that without you i'd go crazy? I'm losing all my sanity now. I need you back. Let's start this all over again, will you?
Looking back, it's all my fault. I shouldn't have said what i said over the phone other day. 9th July 2012 could have changed my life for the better but i spoilt everything..i'm an idiot, a fool for having said what i said. Can i take it all back? Call me selfish or whatever fuck but i can't imagine seeing you with any other girl..i swear that'd be it.