Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Cher Lloyd - Oath
Quite a lot has happened since the last time i blogged. I swear i'd have given up on every single thing in life if not for Dinesh - this guy who is my bff, whom i treasure so much in my life and i'd never wanna trade him for anything else in life because he means more than anyone else to me :) I got to know this boy in 2011 but we somehow weren't close back then and we lost contact after a while but i guess fate brought us back into contact just late last year and i'm glad for that because right now, in the midst of all problems, he's the one who keeps me going and he's the reason behind my smile now. Praise the Lord.
Leaving all that aside, i got my first tattoo done last Saturday at Ink by Finch and i'm so glad it all turned out well. Idk why some people claim that getting tattoos done are painful and such because i didn't feel that much of pain. And i'm loving my tattoo. Planned out what to get for my next tattoo and i can't wait! Probably in late March or early April, heh.
And, back to all those emotional/relationship shit, i guess i'm finally starting to believe that this is the end of us. Sent him a pretty long message yesterday and it hurts me to know how you didn't even bother to reply back. I put so much thought into drafting that one particular message to you and you didn't even reply back. Wow, i really mean a lot to you uh? It hurts, it really hurts to see how much i mean to you. If you really cared, you would have replied. I'm not asking for much, am i? This is the last straw. This is it. Your heart is made of stone and no matter what i do, i don't think i can move your heart all over again. This is like mission impossible and i give up. I'm no superwoman to continue pretending that i'm perfectly fine with you treating me as though i'm invisible. Idk how am i gonna move on but i'm left with no other choice right now. I've lost all hope in winning you back. If you can be so stone-hearted then so can i. I'll get back up on my feet. I'll move on. I'll fall in love again. It's gonna be a painful and rough path up ahead but i'll not give up. I'm like a bird that is injured. It takes time to heal all the pain and learn to fly again. Idk how am i gonna trust another guy again, idk. I'll need to start this all over again and idk whether i have the strength to do so. Jesus is here, right by my side to get me through this :)
Anyway, work starts tmrw! So lazy to even head to work tmrw. Trust me, i'm thinking of just going missing but i need the money. I'm gonna push myself to work harder from tmrw onwards. I need something to keep me occupied. "Everything is gonna be fine." - Inner self.
Xoxo
Labels: #believe, #ootd, #peplum, #relationship #movingon, #tattoo, #work
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